Wow... it has been a minute.
A "minute" has past since I vented my frustrations, lost my sanity over something stupid or just simply spazzed out. But it doesn't mean I have had my moments...
I had moments when I felt boxed in by the powers that be, moments when I felt like I was being used and moments when I just wanted to "chuck up the deuces" and take my leave of this place. You know, it just sucks when you feel as if you are just spinning your wheels, and you notice it, but it really bites when others notice it too and don't ask you, "dude is everything alright?" without the, "Hey, I need you to do this... or that..."
Being depressed really takes the energy out of everything. You go from being all over the place, to just vegetating in front of the computer, watching your friends on Facebook post exciting tales of their day... sorta like you are looking out of your bedroom window at your friends playing outside, being unable to join them because you are not well enough to go out and play.
But hey, during my absence, it hasn't been all "doom and gloom"... I have been able to sucker punch my depression from time to time. Managed to somewhat design and build my home theater computer system, turned my desktop into a budget version of Skynet, and to keep from going full blown nerd.... acquired a two door bullet of a car..... haven't found a tree to wrap it around yet.
Yay.....
But life has this lemon factory - and it is bent on sending me all the lemons. I guess the best way to deal with all the drama life has to offer, I must get back to doing things I used to do.
Now, where did I put that pocket protector...
-tchuss.
